Whats on my mind lately.......
My son Khalil Andre Patterson who was born nov 18 2010.
He was 7lbs 15oz and 21inches.
My baby is so beautiful and smart he is only 25 days old and can left his head up and roll over all by himself, and trys so hard to craw. He is so amazing and a head of his age I love him so much. Now as a new mommy here what new and what Im learning. Well first and for most no sleep, he likes to wake up anywhere from, starting at 2am to 4 and stay up untill 6am. Then he go to sleep and will wake up at 8am, we dont sleep we take one to two hour naps all day. I feel like I spend most of my day trying to catch up on some sleep. I take vitamins but am always tired and have no energy. Then when he is not sleeping its eating time. He pretty much eats all day literally 24/7 but he probably gets that trait from me. well not anymore before and during my pregnancy I loved to eat, now my eating habits suck. I am always afraid of being sick after I eat, which usually happens, so Im not up to eating as much anymore. Next new thing, time for yourself, forget about it. since Ive had my little angel home I have had little to no time for myself. Mainly because I breastfeed and that contains most of my time day and night. Even though breastfeeding has alot of health plus and bonding plus it takes a lot out of you and is something you have to get use to. I think that is one of the reasons I have little to no energy, but despite all the negative things I love it because it is the best thing for him and I wont quit on him. I will go as long as I possibly can even though the thought of teeth scare me. Im not sure when babies get there first tooth, but I plan to stop at or around six months, Hopefully I can last that long because Ive been starting to doubt myself now and its only going on month one. After reading that you may thing I hate being a mom.
Being a mommy is great though and I love it. I love looking at him sleep ( when he does). Watching him adn all this cute facial expressions. I cant wait untill he gets a little older and starts to walk, play, and laugh. Even though that we be another new experience and most like something I will have to get use to because it will come with challenges. I am ready to go though that.
My mother been on my mind.
She just had to go though major surgery. She is doing well and in recovery now and is suppose to come home tomorrow, but its been changed to Wednesday now. I am currently staying with her because I am part of her support team during her recovery and I am here to help her. Its been a long time waiting for this and I am so excited its happening and everything is going right. soon she will be back to her old self with all the energy I remember her having. I cant not wait untill that day because she is so strong and deserves it. Growing up all she care about was me and she did everything for me Im so happy she got
this for her. I love her so much.
Finally I need a job and money asap/
I cant not find a job for anything. Its so hard and I know it not just for me. Hopefully I find one soon because its holiday season. My anniversary of the day I met my son father is coming up and it would be one year but we didnt quite make it, but it is still an very important date to me and I wish I could get him something. I mean its the least I could do for all the things he does for me. Then Christmas, my son fathers birthday, his 21th birthday and he is so excited, but Im like dying inside because I may not be able to get him anything and even though I know he does not care and does not expect anything. I dont care I really want to get him something, but I have no money and I feel so bad. I have had my mind on that for a while. I wish I could give him a surprise party, but that would be literally impossibly for me. I need a job but little school and experience makes it impossible. After I find a job and find some time for my self I hope to go back to school as soon as possible. Hopefully soon because I miss going to school and that will have with my money problems too. Anyway thats the basics of whats on my mind lately. and baby wakes up jusst in time.. yay got to go.
Being a mommy is great though and I love it. I love looking at him sleep ( when he does). Watching him adn all this cute facial expressions. I cant wait untill he gets a little older and starts to walk, play, and laugh. Even though that we be another new experience and most like something I will have to get use to because it will come with challenges. I am ready to go though that.
My mother been on my mind.
She just had to go though major surgery. She is doing well and in recovery now and is suppose to come home tomorrow, but its been changed to Wednesday now. I am currently staying with her because I am part of her support team during her recovery and I am here to help her. Its been a long time waiting for this and I am so excited its happening and everything is going right. soon she will be back to her old self with all the energy I remember her having. I cant not wait untill that day because she is so strong and deserves it. Growing up all she care about was me and she did everything for me Im so happy she got
this for her. I love her so much.
Finally I need a job and money asap/
I cant not find a job for anything. Its so hard and I know it not just for me. Hopefully I find one soon because its holiday season. My anniversary of the day I met my son father is coming up and it would be one year but we didnt quite make it, but it is still an very important date to me and I wish I could get him something. I mean its the least I could do for all the things he does for me. Then Christmas, my son fathers birthday, his 21th birthday and he is so excited, but Im like dying inside because I may not be able to get him anything and even though I know he does not care and does not expect anything. I dont care I really want to get him something, but I have no money and I feel so bad. I have had my mind on that for a while. I wish I could give him a surprise party, but that would be literally impossibly for me. I need a job but little school and experience makes it impossible. After I find a job and find some time for my self I hope to go back to school as soon as possible. Hopefully soon because I miss going to school and that will have with my money problems too. Anyway thats the basics of whats on my mind lately. and baby wakes up jusst in time.. yay got to go.
